Wednesday, May 18, 2005
i am so dead. so so so dead.i failed
5 subs. 5 subs?! OMG. im so gonna be killed by them. i didnt even tell them any marks. not even one sub. i just dun dare to say. YA, I HUM. CAN!? i hum my parents. GREAT. i not improving. im deproving. i seriously dun wish to tell them. but parents' day is like on
28th? i'll get it from them. AHH!! its not as if i didnt study for it. its when u study, and u still cant do the paper. sometimes its just that the paper is difficult. and parents, they
WILL NOT understand. they will think as though u did not put in any effort to make improvement possible. sometimes they just dun understand. they wan the best from their children. i mean, which parents dun. but they have to think that its not always our fault. as in,
puttin in hard work is one thing. getting the paper done correctly is another. oh well. ill just keep going on and on and on..
so
depressed. as in not in depression. but just sad and disappointed with myself actually for deproving so much. i dun wan to see the disappointment on my parents' face. i cannot take it. its like ill be such a disappointment to them that they will NOT even scold me. that hurts. i rather they scold, in this case. one part of me wants them to, the other doesnt. so contradicting. but, life works this wat right?
i think ill go think about how to speak in out to my parents. i definitely DO NOT want mr lee to give them the first hand information.
